Happy New Year!!! I am looking forward to many wonderful and different things in 2013. My trainer and I have been working very hard to get me back to where I was before my knees started to bug me so bad. Lots of swimming, but also cardio and strength training.
But the thing I wanted to mention today is about changes. I have talked about this before, but right now I'm going through some new changes. I think I mentoined in my earlier blogs I have gotten a job. Well we have opened and I am trying to understand and get a grip on this job. Many days I have been going from early morning till late at night. My body is revolting!!! It hasn't been up and going like this in many, many, many, years. And I still have so much to do and learn, that it's only the start. I have found myself having daily meltdowns, and find myself saying I can't do this. Mary (trainer) has been wonderful through this all and she just says anytime we have life changes, we just have to take things slowly and do our best, and most important BREATH. I think I haven't been breathing. So my goal for this week is to finish getting my room set up, and the activites organized, so that the care givers can find the things they need for the residents. (I'm the activites director at a new assisted living center). Then get a handle on the things that I'm going to do with the seniors, and then maybe I can start enjoying this new chalenge in my life.
I have never had to juggle work (away from home) still take care of everything that a mom does, and then still I have my home business. I need to understand I have to make a schedule and keep it. I'm so used to coming home from the gym and then not having to do much, maybe a customer here and there, but no set time line. Now I have to be on my toes, I never know when I'm going to the center so I've had to start doing my hair and makeup, and trying to look more presentable. No more sweats and a t-shirt. IT SUCKS. I have never had to take care of myself. And yet I suppose that's how I allowed myself to get to 450lbs.
On a whole different note I got to skype my son thats serving a church mission over Christmas. It has revitalized my goal of being better than when he left. I don't know that I'll have the 150lbs off that I wanted, but we are shoting for at least 100. Whatever I do I hope he see's the new mom I'm becoming. I do feel that I have made some drastic changes over the lady that started a year ago. They seem to be suttle, but there are many. and in the next 7 months there's going to be even more. By being not around the house doing nothing, I am seeming to be getting my food under control a lot better than I have been, and by being up and walking I really hope that that scale that hasn't moved for 6 months will start plumiting in the right direction again.
So as this New Year starts, I hope we can all chose what we want to change in our lifes, and keep in mind where we want to be a year from now. Nothing worthwhile happens overnight, I finally have figured out that this journey I'm on is going to take a long time. There is going to be different stages that I go through. Last year seemed to be the lets get off your butt stage and show yourself you can still move, this year's stage is going to be lets conquer being back in the job market, because of the hard work you've done in the last year. And realizing that I do have things to share with people, and that I can in my own way give service, and help to those I work with, just like so many people have given to me these last few years. I love all of you that help me every day stay on my journey. I thank you so much, your my inspration.
